Sigh, is all i can say.. sigh.. They have not left for an hour.. and already im in the most depressed mood. I feel as though i cannot wait to see them again.. But it pains me to think that would not happen for another year or so..
What shall I ever do till then? I simply can't believe I am stuck in such a cruel situation.. Having to spend most of my days away from my closest friends, having to be reminded that situations may put me in a position that I may never see them again.. I feel as though I am stuck in a circle.. not knowing what to do and how to act..
I really don't see why God would ever want me to suffer like this.. But then again, do any of us? it's now been an hour since they walked out the door.. I do ever so pray for a safe and pleasent journey for them..
But is God trying to tell me something? This suffering has to happen for a reason right? Perhaps I may never know, perhaps it shouldn't matter. I am so winded as it is. Someone hold me..
~tim
Timothy Tang
17
Rockdige Secondery
Jan 13th 1992
[[ The Wishlist ]]
I could use a new set of headphones...
More guitars?
Maybe a grand piano...
and the will power to write my books
If only life was a fantasy story...
A weekend away with my extended family perhaps? (You know who you are) (^_^)
Fantasy of Darkness (A book project of mine)
Da creater
[[ Don't talk crap, it's ****ng rude ]]
Sigh, is all i can say.. sigh.. They have not left for an hour.. and already im in the most depressed mood. I feel as though i cannot wait to see them again.. But it pains me to think that would not happen for another year or so..
What shall I ever do till then? I simply can't believe I am stuck in such a cruel situation.. Having to spend most of my days away from my closest friends, having to be reminded that situations may put me in a position that I may never see them again.. I feel as though I am stuck in a circle.. not knowing what to do and how to act..
I really don't see why God would ever want me to suffer like this.. But then again, do any of us? it's now been an hour since they walked out the door.. I do ever so pray for a safe and pleasent journey for them..
But is God trying to tell me something? This suffering has to happen for a reason right? Perhaps I may never know, perhaps it shouldn't matter. I am so winded as it is. Someone hold me..
~tim